in love with a fairytale

this is not fun anymore. at least not for me. i can not believe, that after an emotional and depressing discussion like that one tonight, everybody leaves the room a la "uuuuuuh, you´ve had your date with that cute guy yesterday, right?"/"what are we doing on saturday?". if you would be there, you´d understand me. maybe you´re the only one, who´d understand me. actually i´d love to cry just because of the fact, that i´m alone with my opinion and that idealism. i´ve the feeling, that everyone just lives their normal lifes and i´m in love with a fairytale.