our way to handle the following 2 weeks/ 7 exams

Sitting here, on the bed and on the couch. Having the PC on our knees. The room covered with papers, books, pens and big maps. But.
Fanta 4 is too great, the room a nice one.
Yes, we´re studying, but it´s our way of studying. A good way.

every day

I said, life is strange. And I would confirm it every day.
There are days, when you´re shining, because everything is more than just fine. And if a sad friend asked you that day, how were you, you say: Ok, I´m ok. And then, the other day, your friend is happy, you see him smiling and you ask him and he says: I´m happy. We should be as honest as him.
Those days, you want to break out, be anywhere but here, remind you of being human. You mention ironically, that life couldn´t be worse at the moment, but you´ll find out, that yes, it can. The next day anything will crash again. Well, and as you then know about the routine of everything becoming worse, when you think it can continue, suddenly it stops. You can have a look and maybe you´ll change your view and add: well, no, it´s not that bad, it could be worse. Once you´ve thought it, there´s light again. Follow it and don´t look back.
Those things will come again, suddenly, all those kinda things, you call destiny or bad luck. But however you call them, they´ll never knock and say: Be aware!
In good times you don´t see, how well you are and that luck and happiness are your closest friends. You´ll only feel it, when they´ve left again.
But that´s life. We don´t know, what´s coming and most of us don´t want to know it either. If you knew the bad in advance, you were afraid, weeks before. And if you knew, that days will be better in a couple of weeks, you wouldn´t care about living the bad at the moment and wouldn´t see it as bad as it is.
I said, we should live both. And being very happy though. And I would confirm it every day.

One of those moments

Right, left, right, left, right, left. Everything fits. They´ve got the same rhythm. They are not talking. I´ve the same way, so I follow them. Harmony, yeah, you could say harmony. Right, left, right, left. They´re just some years older than me, a young couple, walking hand in hand, he is holding the umbrella. Under his jacket he carries a baby, in blankets, lots of blankets. It´s cold. And raining. Right and left. I´m walking behind them for more than 10 minutes. They don´t talk, no word. Some great minutes.

a post to remember you of your chances.

Last thing I´ve written about globablization and internationality? That most of my friends have relationships to boys and girls across boarders. This week I´ve heard about two more.
And then I remembered again that evening last autumn, when everyone participating suddenly noticed, that we´re just blessed nowadays.
She invited to celebrate her Goodbye to Israel. We´ve been about 20, mostly old friends, she knows from school, some others, just like me. We made barbecue, sat down and talked.
There was him, having studied in Great Britain. He, who didn´t know what to do after school and picked chinese out of a mood - he became anything called "ambassador of China in Germany" after few years, went to China, met his girlfriend there. He lives there, studies law at a chinese university, changed his status from "one of those, who have absolutely no idea of the own life" to "man, he reached a lot". Another one of those is him. He went to study in Chile, came just back for holidays once in a while. At the moment he´s in Germany, finishing studies, then going back to his girlfriend in Chile. She went to study in Texas and is now doing her PhD in the Netherlands and she, who lived one year in Denmark and will hopefully once come with me to study in Stockholm. Our friend, who went to Guatemala and was that time waiting for her boyfriend to move (!) to Germany; and didn´t go to Italy because of him. Another one began his studies in Belgium and is now happy in Austria. Oh, and him, studying in Sweden. Finally he, who went to New York and is now living in Vienna.
I was thinking about writing this post or not. Because actually it´s nothing (absolutely nothing) unique these days. I could continue, looking at my friends, my family, everyone around. But I guess, sometimes, we just should realize what´s happening with us and that we really have every chance to take, if we just want to do it. It´s amazing. AMAZING.

know it all

Lebenskunst besteht zu 90 Prozent aus der Fähigkeit, mit Menschen auszukommen, die man nicht leiden kann. Samuel Goldwyn

If I could (...I wouldn´t)

Sometimes I wanna stop the world
because I´ve got no time to think.
I can not sleep,
but I´m tired of yawning.
I can not think,
because thoughts are crowded
in my head;
and then I stop the world
just for myself
and now it´s clear: I don´t want to think
and the world to turn around again.

2009

*she is going to get married, she told us yesterday
*she has got her big operation thing in january
*he will finish working
*they will leave to Russia soon
*and I... I will finish university, be an ordinary Bachelor (Bachelorette), leave our lovely flat in Wü city, go somewhere to travel/work/take an internship/visit someone/find out about the sense of life/continue studies.

2009 - I´m afraid of you and I´m looking forward to you. Be honest, please. An honest year.Thx.